How do I live in the unknown
Not having the answers I seek
To stay in the uncertainty without turning a cheek
To merely exist in the questions
To not ask with obsession
How do I lean in and experience the moment
To let go of doubt as my opponent
How do I sit back and allow the unrevealed to take the wheel
To surrender to the process and accept how I feel
To share and record just as they are.
To expose my thoughts no matter how bizarre
Ah… could that itself be the difficulty
The hard work, to slow down and go within
To catch where I am before I begin
The sensation of feeling each foot step forward
Realizing it is my soul I move toward
The patience to not look for what’s coming
Not looking behind
Nor denying what's mine
To see what is right before me
And accept what I find
To listen deeply to whatever wants to be said
Instead of focusing on what lies ahead
Recording word after word
Avoiding the fear no one cares or the voice I’m absurd
Just listen for the whisper
As it echos within
That only I can pick up
That can only be heard in the unknown
In the welcome of uncertainty
Putting my faith in the powers that be
Only as it comes and without a plan
To feel the emotion without knowing where it will land
To float in the vagueness
Exist in the cloud
In the silence or the screams out loud
To give myself permission to be out of the game
To not have control, to question if sane
To embrace the fear and keep moving just the same
Not knowing if coming or going
If flying or grounding
To speak out even with a stutter
Not shooting for a star
Nor aiming for a gutter
To be ok with what is
Just as it lays
While not giving up
But discovering a different way
A direction I otherwise might not have swayed
How harsh it may seem
To dwindle in anticipation
And coven what is not seen.
Defining nothing as it seems
Trusting the love and welcoming the pain
To be wild, free and untamed
To live in the unknown
And see what I gain.
