To allow the season in me changing
Who I am is different.
Cell by cell I am rearranging
Like a puzzle morphing.
Like a wall dismantling
Something new rebuilding.
Like a stroke on a canvas
The broken pieces of me adhering,
Becoming something new.
Stepping out of the way,
Allowing nature to ensue.
Admitting the old me, I have out grew.
In a way I could have never predicted
In a way I never knew.
In a way the guided has insisted.
In a way I refuse to resist it.
Like the Autumn, it is time to let those dead leaves fall.
To accept the revision
And admire it all
To not try to hold on to things that no longer serves.
To ride this wave of life,
Every one of its curves
These dead leaves that once created this branch
No longer have nutrients or an energy to withstand
Something that no longer can supply
Beginning a new lullaby
As these truths collapse like an avalanche.
Instead of running away from the crash
I feel compelled to allow instead of asking why.
Embracing the reality, it’s time to say goodbye
To who I once was
Without an urge to tame
It is time to let these leaves fall back
To the Earth in which they came.
Basking in the nakedness of my bald branches
Exposed for the earth to see
See how much I have lived
The things I have undid.
The risk and the chances
The failures, the advances
The beauty of each stage of life.
The mending of the heartbreak
The burning of strife.
The things I have extinguished,
Those that have revived.
Like a Phoenix from the ash,
The conflict that has clashed
Noticing when the webs have been spun,
The worlds that have been undone. The wars that have been fought
The survival that has been sought
But acknowledge when the battle is done.
Accept my losses and journey’s I've won
Knowing through it all I gave it my best
I have been silent, at times I have attest.
I have fought, I have won,
I have given up, I have begun
But this is a time for neither,
This is a time to acknowledge, through it all
I've done what I could.
I have suffered, I have withstood
I have been cursed, I have been blessed.
But now I see I am tired
And realizing the importance of rest.